iLonewolf

I inhale deeply Your head resting on my chest I gently stroke your hair You gaze up, innocently Deep blue eyes Surrounding an infinite void As vast as a black hole A look of longing On your pretty face You innocently whisper Talk to me As if you expect me To disclose the secrets Of the universe Or maybe more Of my self I smile, kissing your soft lips Pull you on top of me As you squeal in protest This moment is too perfect To spoil with vulnerability I want it to last forever Yet I know it cannot So I record this snapshot Imprint it on my soul And I see you Just as you see me No need for words

Upon worn map I drew my trail In red marker Carefully planned Destinations Routes Highlights Excitement in my heart Trepidation in my mind This journey Set out upon alone With no deadline No set stopping points Leads to a place I have searched for All my life I know it will not Be an easy road I hope it's not That's the point And the only thing I will listen to is The wind buffeting my helmet The roar of my engine And that is the Sweetest song I could ask for You ask, Where are you going? I smile, and reply Isn't it obvious? To find my self To rediscover my freedom To live fully

I visited my father Across many miles Many flights Many years We sat beneath A cloudless starry night And shared a glass The twelve-year-old scotch Went down smoothly There was no rush We weren't there to Get drunk I told him of my life My experiences My challenges What it was like to Be a man A son A husband And he understood He didn't have to say a word I could read it in his face In his smile In his tears We shared that bottle As he has shared the same With his father Carrying on a tradition Perhaps Passing on a generation Absolutely As he lit another cigarette In the darkness The fire-flies lit up All around us I felt connected

You may see me As weak Because I stop To help Those in need Because I care About others Animals The environment Because I apologize When I've Made a mistake Because I can't Turn my back To injustice What you don't see Is my true nature My humanity My belief That everybody matters We all struggle In this life We know it's not fair I doubt it ever will be Nature can be cruel And as much as we deny it We share that part of nature The difference is We can choose to live Differently We can choose To care, to love, to be happy We don't need to rely On anybody else To do so And the only regret We must face Is our inaction It's not a ma

Her words speak to me As though they are my own Her soft voice Comforts my loneliness Her unfulfilled need Resonates deeply I try to grasp What she longs for I believe I understand With my heart Not my mind Her anger Is justified She deserves To find what she Desperately seeks We all do She says the more We grasp The more We push away I understand I feel it too And I wonder How did we get here How did we let Each other down Why do we continue To pass each other by And continue to long

The day I took the red pill My world shattered I could no longer Believe the lies Write off the manipulation Believe your love I never imagined You could do this to me That society would allow You to get away with it Was I ever mistaken They encouraged you Helped you destroy everything I worked my life to build Family, friends, lawyers All a lie -- all just there to use me For their own profit None of them cared A shred about my life I should not be surprised I was way too idealistic Cared too much That's my flaw Thank you, red pill For waking me up To reality Goodbye family Goodbye friends Fuck you, lawyers I will never allow Myself

For each wound I become strong For each heartache My heart grows For each passing day I live more fully Strong and free Finding my power My discipline My self For each gain I build my freedom It's not about doing What I want It's about doing What I know is right If not about running From fear It's about standing up For what I believe Today is the day I dream again In this moment I create again Forever young Forever free Forever me